way of my life

For the past few days I’ve been busy “slacking” reason being I have to sacrifice something that I have treasure most for more then 16years. It took me sometime to accept the fact and move on with my life. During the process I have learnt a thing or two about life and I which I believe everybody will learn it sooner or later, be it the easy way or hard. I’ve learnt to fear of being lonely, feel the missing of someone in life, coping with problem encounter and so on.

Coping with crisis can be very hard at times because at some stage it’s really hard to get over it. For my case I went through firstly the denial stage, as times goes by slowly I’m able to accept the fact. Sometime accepting the fact came with depression and only handful of people can get out of it quick, after which came the endurances test which if it successfully done I’ll end up with problem solve.

Tough time doesn’t last but tough people do.
The time we spend may not last but the memories we share will remain unchanged.
From stranger we became friends.

Reminder of my past

~Bad 2 Worse~
Realising i'm getting bad to worse~
exams drawing nearer yet i still can't be bothered~
throughout the day i slack and slack~
soon or later i'm going be a wreck~
why oh why am i like this?
This is really not my wish~

day and night i tried to change for the better
but it just gets bitter and bitter
My parents told me to study hard
yet it seems like i've broke their heart
whenever i took out a book, i started to curse
that was when i realised i'm getting bad to worse~

My results were never good,
always bringing down my parents' mood
blame me for my stupidity
that causes this sickening reality
feeling so useless, being so hopeless
life to me is meaningless
whenever i look at myself, i started to curse
that was when i realised i'm getting bad to worse~

Err..

Today will be the starting of a change in my life, where my entire plan will never fit according to what I had planned. All this years I barely manage to keep my desire for studies alive but this time it been successful extinguished. Well I guess now I’m still in the state of denial as I still coming to school, I wonder when I would be accepting the facts.

Lesson being learn all this while.

In planning for the future there’s always a setback but you need to pull yourself together and continue with the life. Nobody will care if you are a failure but everybody will like to share your success if they could. So be wise in choose to have people around your life.

Found yet still lost

Two days ago I saw a brother of mine at VivoCity Banquet, who I had lost for quite some time. I felt so sad yet so happy when I saw him. Sad to say is because he looked as though he was under a spell that made him unable to communicate to his own real parents. Happy because for so long he been away he still look the same. Guess what he dress the same way I dressed in my secondary school life, polo-t with smart pants and leather shoes.

Let me recalled the memories I had with him... Hmm well when I was small he was the one who take charge around the house together with my elder brother when both my parents weren’t around. He will really take care of us as though he was our parents. He will cook for us when we were hungry, iron our school uniform when our parents busy, send me to school, meet my teachers when my parents can’t make it and when he discipline us he really do discipline us. He was my mentor and my role model but now time has passes people made him change but I believe that deep inside he still the brother I knew. Before he totally lost in his own world he got told me once that he will come and visit us again as he never break his promise I will take his words.

Oh Lord i have lost someone please do guide him back for You are the greatest guidance, protect him for You are the greatest protector, help him for You are the greatest aider.