my life!! after joining platoon

howdy mate!!
how's life??

mine is bored for the past few weeks because i never really enjoy my day off. ...wasting my off day roting @ home (coz most of my fren are busy) and became part time chauffeur for the family (how to find gf like this??)

i been telling myself to train for my coming IPPT but end up roting @ home (mayb there's nobody accompany me!!) Thank God, i manage to overcome the laziness by tell myself about the extra $200 and also i need to tone up those flap on my body..(hehehe seem like working)

well guys i guess i juz gonna stop here for now kinda sleepy(hehehe)
Take care & Good morning

part 2 of hell

hi pple,


im Back from the second part of hell..well first day came back already got standby never mind but the worst thing is our off day got cancel the other platoon got off day..(so sux lor) my platoon have this tradition where by the new comer have to treat the old mate a meal and we will eat together..i guess this idea is not bad at all is kinda bond the mate close together...(at least my platton not bad even though the life there sux)

End of part 1 beginning of part 2

helloe pple!!

guess wat i juz ended my 11weeks of depressing hell... now im a full pledge rescuer (i think so, well who cares another level of hell need to go through for another 18 more months. so as usual rotting @ home all by myself waiting for pple to ask me out (this is wat happen when u enter NS, you have to rot yourselve to death coz all ur buddy are busy working, studying or dating.. u can't do much except for letting thing happen and pass by ur life.

ok let see yesterday was fun...lost my way to lot1 and late for more then half an hour (ly, cy ...im so sorry for being late) anyway suppose to treat them a meal each but end up they want sweet (hiyo) hmmm today actually meeting someone but end up cancel but nvm tmr meeting someone else for dinner another st john buddy of mine then thursday back to same old shit again...i shall let u all noe what happen on the next level of hell once i book out again

wat a life ( so depressing)

Yo!yo!

Another Sunday is another book in day for me as usual it will be another depressing week for me in camp... so far everything still the same im still single no gal no money and still in the freaking camp..hope everything gonna be better after 7November08...

What's going on??

Hi guys,

it had been very long since i type on this blog..

so many things had happen in camp and so many test i had to sit for..

i just need to hang on for 2 more weeks before i pass out get my fire badge (extra $300 here i come)....

At this moment i don't really know what going on with my feeling.. all out of a sudden i feel that i miss someone but who??who could this person be?? maybe this person is someone special or just a friend!! i don't know Arrr!!!(should i go search for a gf ??i mean a real faithful gal other then my car)

Since the day i enlisted to NS i've been suffering from homesick eventhough i got to book out on the weekend!!my instructor said its normal but for how long??i guess i will miss home every single moment.. Arrr what the hell sound so gay talking about feeling..(even though i act like 1 doesn't mean i am 1)...i thought of earning extra cash during this two years but how??what can i do other then nursing & teaching first aid?? i was thinking of collecting drink cans and sell them but where can i sell them??

i guess i could only plan and hopefully someday i could execute them..

hi guys,

It’s been very long time since my last bloging. so here is what happen,every week I book out on Friday afternoon with a smile and book in on Sunday evening with a frown. I though this routine will end until 21st august as it was the end of my REC life. But sad to say I need to do this same old shit again for another 3 months as I am posted to SRB. I guess those who were posted to SRB are excess manpower in the camp that why others call us the Singapore Rubbish Bin. In SRB we handle what the fire fighter, paramedic and rescuer handle and of cause a little of hazamat skill that what made us Special Rescue Battalion.

when I'm depress..

Awww

Many things had happened in the camp for the past few week (sorry can’t share cause don’t want myself into trouble). My body still aching form the training but somehow feel happy because I didn’t report sick during the training, well the PTP end on my birthday (what a luck). I met with old friends we chat about old time here and there, then in camp we got this PC that my platoon don’t like cause of his harsh discipline but then few days ago he taught me how to swim despite his injured elbow as you all know I’m a slow learner. Now everybody in my platoon was wondering what my relationship with the PC well I can assure you that my relation to him is just a recruit nothing more. Then on weekend drove my car as per normal but this time another big scratch was made :(

Ok la will stop here till next time..

oh man

It’s been 2 weeks since I’ve entered the Physical Training Phase and I have few more weeks/months till end of whole training. It’s really tough for me as my muscles are not in good shape but hopefully by end of this physical training I’m in good shape. Life during training is very tough as I need to adjust to the place and people around me. Well during the training we were only allow to go back on Friday afternoon and came back on Sunday night if the trainer were happy with our performance. So far so good but I don’t really know how much longer I can keep up until I break down with all this routine. Hope this whole training end soon. Till next time!!

me,me,me

For the past weeks, my chest gets a sharp pain more often and my limbs getting numbness easily. I don’t really know why maybe due to stress, nervousness or just a common unhealthy lifestyle. If I were to go for medical check up now, people will say that I’m trying to find an excuse to exempt myself from NS. Well I don’t really care about what others say. There are two main reasons why I don’t want to go for medical check up now. Firstly I don’t know if I can accept whatever the diagnosis of my conditions maybe and secondly I don’t want both of my parents to worry about me as they have other thing handles.

I always told myself to eat balance diet and excise but end up eating junk food and still slacking. I always wonder when I will change, what stop me from changing? Where have my will power gone?

A man with a dream is called dreamer
A man who work hard is called a slave
But a man who work hard and have a dream called himself successful.

way of my life

For the past few days I’ve been busy “slacking” reason being I have to sacrifice something that I have treasure most for more then 16years. It took me sometime to accept the fact and move on with my life. During the process I have learnt a thing or two about life and I which I believe everybody will learn it sooner or later, be it the easy way or hard. I’ve learnt to fear of being lonely, feel the missing of someone in life, coping with problem encounter and so on.

Coping with crisis can be very hard at times because at some stage it’s really hard to get over it. For my case I went through firstly the denial stage, as times goes by slowly I’m able to accept the fact. Sometime accepting the fact came with depression and only handful of people can get out of it quick, after which came the endurances test which if it successfully done I’ll end up with problem solve.

Tough time doesn’t last but tough people do.
The time we spend may not last but the memories we share will remain unchanged.
From stranger we became friends.

Reminder of my past

~Bad 2 Worse~
Realising i'm getting bad to worse~
exams drawing nearer yet i still can't be bothered~
throughout the day i slack and slack~
soon or later i'm going be a wreck~
why oh why am i like this?
This is really not my wish~

day and night i tried to change for the better
but it just gets bitter and bitter
My parents told me to study hard
yet it seems like i've broke their heart
whenever i took out a book, i started to curse
that was when i realised i'm getting bad to worse~

My results were never good,
always bringing down my parents' mood
blame me for my stupidity
that causes this sickening reality
feeling so useless, being so hopeless
life to me is meaningless
whenever i look at myself, i started to curse
that was when i realised i'm getting bad to worse~

Err..

Today will be the starting of a change in my life, where my entire plan will never fit according to what I had planned. All this years I barely manage to keep my desire for studies alive but this time it been successful extinguished. Well I guess now I’m still in the state of denial as I still coming to school, I wonder when I would be accepting the facts.

Lesson being learn all this while.

In planning for the future there’s always a setback but you need to pull yourself together and continue with the life. Nobody will care if you are a failure but everybody will like to share your success if they could. So be wise in choose to have people around your life.

Found yet still lost

Two days ago I saw a brother of mine at VivoCity Banquet, who I had lost for quite some time. I felt so sad yet so happy when I saw him. Sad to say is because he looked as though he was under a spell that made him unable to communicate to his own real parents. Happy because for so long he been away he still look the same. Guess what he dress the same way I dressed in my secondary school life, polo-t with smart pants and leather shoes.

Let me recalled the memories I had with him... Hmm well when I was small he was the one who take charge around the house together with my elder brother when both my parents weren’t around. He will really take care of us as though he was our parents. He will cook for us when we were hungry, iron our school uniform when our parents busy, send me to school, meet my teachers when my parents can’t make it and when he discipline us he really do discipline us. He was my mentor and my role model but now time has passes people made him change but I believe that deep inside he still the brother I knew. Before he totally lost in his own world he got told me once that he will come and visit us again as he never break his promise I will take his words.

Oh Lord i have lost someone please do guide him back for You are the greatest guidance, protect him for You are the greatest protector, help him for You are the greatest aider.

5days & 7nights ago

It had been 5days and7nights since the day I got my car. Guess what happen? I created a few scratch along the way all thanks to my poor skill in parking(HAHAHA). For the past days I been driving to school and lost my way but still manage to come in class early (Hehehe... shame to those who came late).

feeling tired now

It’s been really bad for me to drive alone as I always lost my way, waste my time searching for the route and most of all I waste petrol. I guess I should get a GPS but then again I rather have a girlfriend which able to tell me the direction, accompany me through the journey and most of all she is very affordable the a GPS cause I just need to spend all my tender, love and care towards her :D


Very sleepy now and don’t really know what the hell am I typing now.
To Be Continue....(tomorrow)

Excited but sad

Finally after so many years I been waiting, today was the day I got to drive my very own car. Firstly very nervous as today was the offical day I drove alone.(lucky still know how to drive) but got problem with parking(hehehe).

It been only the 3rd week of school but there's already lots of change in everybody. People really do change as the times goes by...From stranger to friend then to foe by then it's back to stranger again. I guess if things started fast eventually it do end faster.

It's only been like few weeks I knew this girl but already miss her blur looks.(it's just a crush..hahaha) I wonder when will she be free to meet me again??.

What a day...

Today life was kind of mess up. First I missed three buses on my way to school because 168 at my stop always packed. Lucky not late because I bother to get out of my house early..In the morning drink 1liter of milk on empty stomach. Got very bad tummy aceh because milk react with the acids in the stomach to produce gas..(Why I know yet still I keep doing it??).

After school very happy as I got a date with Nicola but end up she got change of plan..feel so sad got ditch by her(hahaha not really im sad because of other stuff). Now feel very useless as all the plan I have for my life will go down only god know where...It is very hard for me to enjoy my life with people around me when I consciously aware that my life is doom.

Oh Lord I know that You will never give a burden greater then what your sevent could endure so please do help me in my times of needs. And i know that i always forgot about You so do pull me back to Your path and forget me not.

Journey

My journey to have a better education is doom right now. For a slow learner like myself, it is an achievement for being able to enrol and cope with polytechnic life. But sad to say that my glory of education will only end with saddness due to the present deferment guidelines for NS. Well what to do it's just fated that I can't get a diploma no matter how hard I've try. The only thing I could do now is just wait for miracle to happen to let me continue the studies. Will I be able to lead my family out of poverty in education?(only thing I could do is wonder & wish)

well let see how long a slow learner like myself waste time schooling

2years=>kindergarten(January1992-December1993)

6years=>primary school(January1994-December1999)

4years=>secondery school(January2000-December2003)

2years=>Nitec course(January2004-December2005)

2years=>Higher Nitec course(May2006- March2008)

8weeks(have to quit for NS)=>polytechnic(April2008)

2weeks after poly

It's been 2weeks since I start poly life..so far so good, made lots of friends and future enemy. The class was joyful at first but as times goes by the joyfulness die within.

Today I receive letter regarding my deferment from NS.. As thought the result were clearly reject with no circumstance. well there always a rainbow after a thunderstorm, so i guess my feeling of emptiness will end soon after this conflicts of getting diploma Vs NS.

To all my buddy:
Hold on dear to what you have now and can achieve rather then cry over what had happen.
Never regrets what you have choose cause every action (may it be good or bad) there's always an opportunity for you to succeed in life.

happy/sian

Today went to school like any other day (super early). At first super happy when the car company call me..(getting my car soon).hehehe...after that as I say like any normal school day very sian!! Today presentation did very badly(more sian)...

After school hang around with ah Kai, KJ, Nana & Ah ma (Shermaine).. we went to Plaza Singapura play arcade cause ah Kai like to play so we join him play also(hehehe) after no more money to spend we slack to waste time...

During slacking time
I was like watching chinese drama..trying to read the subtitle flying around but couldn't catch up so end up blogging..well all I could say is the internet connection dam lousy need to keep on signnig in...dam sian so decided to go home first (hehehe)

Bullshit

Today was like any other day..weant to school, do presentation, quiz, RJ, peer & self evaluation. But today feel kind of stupid cause I go send my notebook for configuration. Well the school say they need to configure the student laptop so that we gonna have a smooth 3years stay with them as they need to help us install all the necessary software needed for our lesson.(bull shit) all the configure done is make my notebook more lag. Well who am I to question the IT personnel about IT stuff.

Well if I want to stay & get my diploma I have to play along. As I'm still waiting for my deferment letter to approve so I will endure as long as it will take..if I really can't defer any longer then I will reconfigure the notebook accoding to my requirment.hehehe...life is really tough right now so I will do my best to adapt to the situation.

A person once told me that if I want to be better in life I should be this three animal: Eagle => Have a great vision and forcus toward the goal

Chameleon => able to blend in with the situation

Lion => brave to face any challenge and fear no challenge coming.

happy day

Yo!!

Today the start of the new day in RP..well the first day was not so bad, we had fun through out except for the group discussion. I guess all of us don't like to do work..hehehe. After school very sleepy but being recharge by Nicola message, she just ask me out for dinner.(wow super so happy). She look very cute when she just woke up.(sorry to keep you waiting until you fall asleep), half way her younger sister came and join us. At first she was shy as I was there but end up we bully Nicola(hehehe).


Let me tell you all more about Nicola...

Well I knew her through the net on 5th April 08

she in her sweet 16, from NYJC transfer to MJC

well I guess that should be all..

by the my class there's not much pretty girls after all

Hope

hey!!

• Today got my new notebook for monday lesson. (very happy)
  



• tomorrow collecting my new passport (finally its new, 10years been the same old passport)hehehe!!
  



• My car (when the hell are you coming out??)
  

well 7th April poly starting lucky first day reporting at 9am if early confirm will be late.

oh ya need to extand my NS deferment date for another 3years if not half way got call up die. By the way hope all the girls in my class are pretty so got motivation to go for lesson..hahaha

logging off

mess up

hey there!!

Yesterday kinda mess up given by the poly application.
first need to report to the asign poly just to take the enrolment "package"
then they told us to come today just to pay the enrolment & 1st semaster fees
the one that piss me off the most was the financial assistance schemes, by the way I took the CPFEducation Scheme and here how the steps goes:

1. visit the website http://mycpf.cpf.gov./Members/Gen-nfo/FAQ/Education/EDNHigh.htm
   (which bring me to this msg "Sorry, this page is no longer available.
   Please visit our homepage or use our search function to find the information you need.")
   
2. Log in using the student SingPass
3. About 4days after student submitted the application the other party should see the application submmited by the student. the other party need to verify by click on "comfirm"
4. within one weekafter the other party confirmed, student should receive an email confirmation from CPF board and this has to be forwarded to the Polytechnic via email by 07th April 2008.

let us reflact on the step above with the date I've recieve the information. Just a gentel reminder this things all happen yesterday. Izzit logical to crash about 11days of waiting time into juz 4 to 5 days??

well I guess this is the start of a new problem..

what a luck

hi again!!

Today feel kinda down because feel like burden my parents again & again. Even though they don't mind about it but some how I feel sad for them. Actually I really don't mind waiting for few more years to drive when I heard the insurance for person below the age of 21 is $6000. I guess there still stereotype in this morden world. I really wonder why the insurance company look at the age if the person already capable of doing something. If they think that driver below the age of 21 are dangerous then why do they even bother to insure them at all?

Well in life people always look down on you on matter how capable you are. Its either you prove them wrong or keep the yep out. For me why bother proving to people when they don't belive you.(waste of time)

hope & work towards it, one day you will achieve your dream

Change

hey there!!
today I got lots of changes.(as long its not bad I don't mind)

firstly I went to ICA to extand my passport date and end up spending $75.35

$70 for new passport (need to renew my already expired)

$5.35 for 4pic of passport photo (What a luck)

then went to the bank to deposit my awared cheque and also update my passbook..ending up with new passbook (well its the 3rd time since i open up this account) and also changing a new ATMcard (i think its also the 3rd time i change my card). while at the bank i saw pamphlet about MSA, ask some question here and there ending up with new acount open.(HAHAHA)

hope my life is changing to be better :)

when will my new car arrive??so sad need to wait

Good things are worth to wait for..(HEHEHE)

Empty & Confuse

Hello mate!!

It's has been two weeks now since i feel kind of empty in my life.

I really doesn't know what i really want to do with my life should I future my studies or work after my intership. So I decide to plan my future ( well its might not be as good as others but it will do for now)

so here's my plan:

1. Go look for a job (in paper/internet)



2. on the 4th April check for poly posting ( hopefully by then i got my car)



3. on the 7th April go for dental appointment ( extraction of my wisdom tooth must be painful)



4. if can't go poly apply for paramedic or police

well the rest of the plan need to wait after 7th April..

loging off for now

hope everything goes as plan.

Introduction

hey there!!

Let me tell you more about myself, well here I go..

I'm the kind of person who started to enjoy my life at a very young age and always neglected my studies. I can say that most of my stuff I've learn through the world of tevevision. I guess it's better to be smart in some ways rather then decompose yourself doing nothing.

Primary School

Well this part of life I really can't remember much. All I know that I really hate to go school, God know whatever the reason is.. In Pri 5 & 6 all I could remember was we only study math, science & mother tongue.

Secondary School

Let me see.. Here I was not really bother to study much until I reach sec 3 where I really put in some effort to study. Life in secondary school is much better then in primary school but then again who am I to say when all the while I just slid through the years without stress.

After Secondary Life

During my school life my teacher always told us that those who enjoy now will suffer later. So I guess I really take their words seriously and enrolled myself to nitec course in nursing, higher nitec in biochemical technology and mayb into poly. I wonder which course in poly I will get into?