Life is tough, so I will

stress yet fun ;)

2010-08-26T17:27:00.002+08:00

Hey

Firstly I want to say sorry to myself for not updating this blog for more the a week. (Promise to update at least once a week) hope this promise i can keep..

So what shall I say...Oh ya now is the 16 day of fasting, left with 2more weeks and there's goes the fasting month.. Well this month been going for courses and planing for the upcoming event but yet still having fun though...hahaaha maybe cause school haven't start ;)

hmm thinking of going back to practice my nursing skill but then where??should I go work part time as a nurse or should i just volunteer as a nurse in a nursing home??oh well we just have to wait and see about that.

As time went by my time for school getting closer..yet to prepare for school..need to buy new laptop then need to configure to the school setting, need to do the school fees, need to choose an elective module for my second semester...hmm this can be stress at a later part (hope so..)

oh well i guess i stop here...so hopefully next week i update the blog ;)

another bipolar attack...hahaha

2010-08-11T00:55:00.002+08:00

Today my brain still think it is monday....(got the monday blue)...hehehe system lagging due to long hours of shut down...Hmm been playing bowling for the past two days and now my thumb sore and has been eating fastfood for don't know how many time...the tummy getting bigger(alwasy telling myself to jog but then too lazy)...hmm need that someone to take care of me :(

Well i roughly got that someone in mind but then i promise myself i only gonna have a relationship in 2011....if by then she already attach then too bad...for now i guess its the time for me to know her better and impress her heart at the same time...hmm hopefully we could be together for a very long time...what can i say i can be a good friend but not very good boyfriend back then...

To my Ex(if you read this)...Im sorry if i ever neglect you and make you feel that i didn't care about you back then and i would like to thank you for being part of my life even if the period we been together was short but still your tender , love and care that you shown and gave have change me to be a better person...for that i thank you once again

Bambang

A week

2010-08-07T21:44:00.005+08:00

A week had pass and all is good. Bought a brand new ipod touch from a friend of mine which cost $220. Finally took back my I/C for nearly 2months after ORD...hahaha got new swatch for having pefect attendance in NS and they also give a new ez-link card...hahaha oh ya this month also got paid for the part time job that i've done for the past month...well not much but i guess it can last for a month ;)

Maybe this year is not a bad year after all...start with a lost end with a gain :)

Im back!!!

2010-08-01T17:18:00.003+08:00

hey...

its been awhile since my last blog after the misfortune, life been busy...hahaha let's see what had happen...

runing a basic home nursing course for the sec1
going for syf training
having fun with the people i met along the way
trying to help advertise my mum satay proposal (still in progress)
work part time as admin for half a month
settle some administrative before school reopen (going back to RP...hahaha)
work in progress for nco project...(hahaha so many work in progress)

well all this happen in a period of 2 and a half month.....hmmm not very happening i guess...hahaha well yesterday closing a very good deal with a friend of mine and the transaction will be made this tuesday...hahaha

oh ya before i end i like to wish all the nurses out there "HAPPY NURSES DAY" may all of you put a smile to everyone under your care :)

A day i should juz die

2010-05-26T12:46:00.002+08:00

26 May 2010...
Yesterday was really really bad day for me but the bad luck has yet to finish
well let's see what i mean

firstly in the morning an old couple drove and hit on my car left with minor scratch on the right door and side mirror....(try to be nice and forget about it)

secondly at night a lot of thing heppen on the road and during parking...(juz say that my driving bcome sux at that point of time)

thirdly today juz found out that some bugger happily spend $1134.60 on my lost Visa card yesterday...so i guess you already throw away my 11b and my pass...(awww what a good friend you are...making full use of my misfortune...thank you)

well thank you GOD!! for giving me this:
- people that I cannot trust
- a place that I cannot have a peace of mind
-a burden that too much for me to endure
-a luck that have never ending fall

fail and disappointed

2009-11-19T22:57:00.003+08:00

hey guys...

now I'm very stress cause of IPPT, keep on failing the 2.4km section..very sad sia if can't pass my IPPT, $1500 will just gone like that without spending..well there's only one thing to do now to train and focuse, relax and just run...the condition look bad with all the muscles aches and the retest will be pretty soon. I don't know if im able to pull it through..

Belife

2009-08-16T12:23:00.004+08:00

hi..

Have you ever dream of becoming a successful person??
Well i sure did. So is its just a dream or something that you are able to achieve it??
To me it is achieveable dream if you do something about it. so when people introduce me to a business that could make me success in a shortest time and put my effort in it, im eager to find out more about it. But once I knew it I have a second though. Well some of you may have guess it. Yes its Network Marketing. Actually I had join this thing for a long time but all im interested in is not the business concept but the supplement. well some of you may wonder why the hell I join if im not interested?the answer is simple join as a member to get discount on the product and also be reward when you buy. so in future when your friend ask for a suggestion on which supplement to buy then you got a company which pay you to recommend them. so in this way you get paid and paid.

So for me Network Marketing is not bad thing but the way some or should I say the majority of them are like a pest who pestering you to join them. Am I right?? Hahaha I also have a number of friends who keep pestering me to join them so what did I do to them?? Funny that you want to know what else sia avoid them la, simple la do what others do. For me whatever I don't like people to do to me I don't do to others. Simple enough :)

To all those who are reading this
if you want to support me by joining or buy a product do let me
if you want to get an advice on health product still came ask me dont worry even though im no longer a nurse but I do still practice the ethics of a nurse :)
if you don't want to its ok no worries no problem.

Different people have different (believe/ideas/perception/vision/ect.) thats what make them unique treasure them cause once they are the same they gonna be damn bored.

Why the hell YOU never kill ME

2009-07-17T02:56:00.004+08:00

I don't really understand why I must serve the country that doesn't want me alive

here are the 2 main things that make me feel unwanted

1) no edusave for the 4th child onwards in 1987 till 2000++

2) not eligible for the QCR in Taxpay even though I meet the criteria

why the hell you make me a citizen of a country but never give me the full rights as a citizen?

there's no point of living and trying very hard to live if people around you keep trying to kill you.

why must you be a hypocrite??never deliver whatever been preach.

disappointment

2009-06-12T19:47:00.003+08:00

hey,
it's been awhile since my last blog. i been busy lately with NS and stuff.
there's really nothing much to say as life is full of disappointment.

in life you should never trust anybody then yourself. Most friends will be around and helpful when you don't need them but they always missing whenever you need them. for example they always ask you politely or do something extra special when they need a favor from you promise you this and that but when come the daedline they always trying to avoid you.

well i can be kind to people but never take advantage over my kindness. because of this stupid "people" i limit my good deed and trust nobody.

My advice to those who want to follow: Never trust anybody except yourself but if you do trust them never trust 100% cause if you do you just gonna have lots of disappointment.

driver??

2009-05-10T13:59:00.002+08:00

hey guyz

this few days really got piss off with some driver...what the hell are they thinking the road is their izzit??want to change lane never give signal, stop in the middle of nowhere and some idiot can walk in the middle of the road..

its seem that my mum had change the shop location again..hiya dunno when will she stay put and run the stall...hmm now kindda busy with camp life sia need to learn this and that after that need to teach them all the medical equipment and also first aid..do all this got no extra off or pay so sian..

New hope

2009-04-25T19:01:00.002+08:00

hey guys,

Guess what??
my mum decide to open a food stall @ chai chee blk55
well those few days didn't have much customers as the stall is at the back and the place is not well known to others.

At least now at home I got food to eat..(hahaha yumyum!!)
so I guess now you guys will know where to find me if im not in camp..hahaha

till next time Cya around..
BB

Friendship Love

2009-04-12T23:07:00.004+08:00

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
The days go by and weeks has pass,
Before I know it, a year is gone.
Guess I never see my old friends face again,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
She knows I like her just as well,
As in the days when I text her phone and she text mine.
But she were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.Tired of playing a foolish game,Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call you dear,
Just to show that I'm thinking of her."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And the distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,"Here's a telegram sir," "she had gone today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Never regret on what you did/didn't done just move on cause you have chose to do so....

Trust of a person I called Friends

2009-04-03T19:44:00.002+08:00

Dear Friend..

For the past few month i had learn so much about some of the people I call friend...I learn that not everybody can be trust with matter which involve with money. So I guess by losing few hundreds dollers mean that I have learnt the hard way of not to trust anybody except myself..

To those who had borrow money from me let me tell you this:

I won't collect back the money like a bagger cause if you know how to borrow you should know how to return it back.

To those who offer to pay for my parking, petrol, ERP or whatever shit please don't offer me cause I really have money if you don't intend to pay don't offer la it's very easy.

To those type of people that are stated above please do stay away from me la cause I will be rich and happy as I know I don't have such a "friend" that always make use of me for their own benefits..

To all my good friend the reason why I can't trust you all is because of the people that cause the problem above that made me not to trust anybody else except myself.. hope you all understand.!!

Money maker

2009-03-23T22:18:00.003+08:00

hey mate!!

Guess wat??this few days i have gone to the internet to look for site that can help me make money. And below are some site i had join

http://www.yuwie.com/r/61046/ (this site pay u juz by hang out there with ur buddy)

http://www.surfjunky.com/?r=turtle87 (this site pay u $0.45/hr if u login with them)

there's a few more site but im too sleepy to list them all right now..hahaha byebye :)

Making Money

2009-03-18T01:02:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,

today I somehow feel rather happy cause I found a site that can help me make money.(I don't know how true it is but no harm in trying as it doesn't cost me anything hahaha)

well the link is : http://www.surfjunky.com/?r=turtle87
If its really true then i am making money right by only surfing the net but if it doesn't then Im juz wasting my time as always....hahaha

so if your passion is to serve the net why not sign up and earn some $$.. there's nothing to loss coz u don't have to pay juz gain... i know it to wounderful to be true so if u wanna know the result you can ask me next month in april when i got the check then i will let u all know..

till then i will blog about other stuff on my next entry..cya around

My love

2009-03-12T23:20:00.005+08:00

Christmas falls in December
I write to u to remember
Whenever we are not together
I always look at your picture to remember..

Since the day that i broke up with u...
I've never felt so much anger and happier
I know this 2 feelings doesn't mix
but I don't know what to do
All I know is that I love U

Baby the feeling was right when you were by my side,
Now that you are gone & I'm left all alone
waiting here for the next train to take me home..

I've given all my love to u
Now my heart are missing u
Baby tell me what do I do
To bring your love back to me
so we can be together forever

After I part with u, baby I've come to realise how wonderful we were together
There I was wishpering sweet words to you. and here you are kissing me tenderly.
Darling how I miss those lovely days when you surprise kiss left me in a daze.
How i wish, how i wish we were back together...

hope

2009-03-11T21:17:00.004+08:00

hello...

Another day another story to tell but somehow i got nothing much going on today..
been driving all day as usual cause im on course rite now..oh ya this 2weeks will be wasting money on outside food cause after each point we stop we went to eat..haha will be fat again(hopefully not)

i juz wish i couold press a reset button for my life and start everything new...haha it will never happen so i hope i would get busy with my life and forget about everything that had happen in my life. i really dun know what happen to me??WTH with all this emo shit??i guess i became soft as time went by....hmm ok la no point in a hope when all ur hope won't come true.

(love hurt every moment its leave u but i dun mind the pain as long as i can feel the love again and again)

ok la till next time till we meet again
byebye my fren!!

Emo or juz normal?

2009-03-09T19:51:00.002+08:00

hey hey!!

im back...today nothing much happen just that on my way back nearly ran over a stupid dog that stand in the middle of the road. will be wasting alot of money on food while on this weeks course..haha

Yesterday went for duty met my X, she so hyper very noisy miss hugging her but too bad she already got someone else in her heart. well trying my best to forget her but its look like not working. we been apart for a year plus but why i still can't forget her..i dunno why i still keep all the heart that she made for me and a letter she wrote before she went holiday.(should i juz throw everything she gave me and try to start anew??) so emo HAHAHA

A wound will take its time to heal and leave a scar behind which will remain there to be remember.

wat a test

2009-03-08T22:07:00.003+08:00

harlo!!!

hope pple still visit this site and look out for updates...hehe ok i know i've not been update the site with new post lately coz kind of busy this few weeks..

well this few weeks i will be on course so ok la kind of free...
last week took my class4 test though i could pass the test with just one try but i screw big time, for my evulation i got 32points but during the test i got 20points..arrr extra by 2points only then on my 2nd test i did quite well i only score 8points but got 1 immidate failur due to 1 stupid mistake..on my 3rd attemp lucky i score 16points actually at that point of time i already lost hope on passing the test.for now for the next 2weeks i will be driving all over Singapore road but too bad my class4 only valid on SCDF vehicles only..nvm once im confident with my driving i will apply the licence outside hehe..

ok la will stop here coz too tired & sleepy to type anymore...hehe
hope i will remember to continue tomorrow....haha

wat a life.

2009-02-26T17:46:00.004+08:00

harlo...

Hmmm..how long have i been not bloging??hahaha so sorry about that.

been busy with "life" this few weeks...thot this year gonna be better but end up the same 1)Jan pay screw up instead of $20 extra, $300 shortage sia lucky they pay back.. 2)in Feb the promotion screw up..i guess they will promote anyboday nowadays.

But even though all this screw up happen I don't mind cause I met up with this gal..i knew her from one of the class i attend. we went out for a few times but somehow i suddenly have feeling for her..i been seeing her during my off day and she make my off day worth while. i feel so happy just by seeing her sms. i don't know if i should express my feeling to her or just remain as friends. I NEED HELP!!!

Life

2009-01-31T23:15:00.003+08:00

hey!!

ever wish you were in other people shoes??
well i surely did but im still thankful for what I still have now.
even though the life that I live in is not perfect but somehow it is better I guess.

In life there's always up and down but that what make life exciting.
you can't expect a perfect life cause it just gonna be bored. You won't learn to understand and appreciate the things you have.

but it is not wrong to hope for a perfect life cause by hope you are somehow driving yourself to change the life that you have to be better.. Well a fairytale ending can come true if one wish and work hard towards their goal, a sure happy ending will await them.

May you all be inspired to work for a bette life.

1week 1feeling

2009-01-19T07:39:00.003+08:00

hel - low!!

Two week ago i went out with my "daughter/princess" for a dinner @ one of the Macdonald in Pasir Ris. As usual after dinner I will send her back home suddenly out of a sudden she asked if she could drive around the carpark. As a good "father" I immediately say no, then she give me that look. The look which no father can say no to his daughter(in my heart i curse and swear as she give me the sad puppy face). As any good father that don't want to disappoint his daughter so i brought her to some empty road at that time for her to try out.(lucky i don't shit in my pant even though her driving were scary leh).

Then last week my pay was suppose to get $700 but end up getting $402.20(what the hell!!). That week really don't feel like going back to camp sia. I want to resign but cannot cause it my f@$King National Service (hiya cut our pay already then punish us here and there..wth!!). then my parents went for holiday again never bring me along (so sad sia)

Yesterday went challenger to look around end up buying a notebook which cost one month pay (what the hack..i already suffer so the only way is to pamper myself is by enjoy my hard earn pay..)

well got to go wash my car then go out for branch (hungry sia) after that fatch my parents from the airport.

Brief blog

2009-01-07T19:44:00.005+08:00

Hi...

It has been very very long since I last update my blog. so let me tell you guys briefly what had happened.

in the month of december my company (Bravo always been and always will) were being deploy to woodland checkpoint to check on cars (its a stupid job checking car boot for spare wheel). Somewhere in early christmas morning there were misunderstanding between me with some of the senior. but who cares?? at the same time Im having a feeling of missing someone during christmas but then Im trying to forget about her. Remembering the time we used to spend together made me sad when she no longer around me (shall not mention about her anymore).

Now in January we are back in camp (celebrating New Year in camp cause my platoon were on standby on the 1st of Jan). After the deployment we were given 2weeks off but then we still need to come back during our standby duty in camp (actual fact is we were only given 1week off instead). ya so there's no point complaining cause I have no choice but to waste my freaking 2years serving the country that deprive some of my privileges as a citizen during my younger days...well thats what basically happen.. rite now my off day I spend time with my family and my "adopted sister" but she call me dad (haha) and I call her princess (cause she is very lazy.. i guess i need to cane her so she won't be lazy!!what you guys think??haha)

my life!! after joining platoon

2008-12-01T02:15:00.002+08:00

howdy mate!!
how's life??

mine is bored for the past few weeks because i never really enjoy my day off. ...wasting my off day roting @ home (coz most of my fren are busy) and became part time chauffeur for the family (how to find gf like this??)

i been telling myself to train for my coming IPPT but end up roting @ home (mayb there's nobody accompany me!!) Thank God, i manage to overcome the laziness by tell myself about the extra $200 and also i need to tone up those flap on my body..(hehehe seem like working)

well guys i guess i juz gonna stop here for now kinda sleepy(hehehe)
Take care & Good morning

part 2 of hell

2008-11-15T15:37:00.002+08:00

hi pple,

im Back from the second part of hell..well first day came back already got standby never mind but the worst thing is our off day got cancel the other platoon got off day..(so sux lor) my platoon have this tradition where by the new comer have to treat the old mate a meal and we will eat together..i guess this idea is not bad at all is kinda bond the mate close together...(at least my platton not bad even though the life there sux)

End of part 1 beginning of part 2

2008-11-11T08:43:00.006+08:00

helloe pple!!

guess wat i juz ended my 11weeks of depressing hell... now im a full pledge rescuer (i think so, well who cares another level of hell need to go through for another 18 more months. so as usual rotting @ home all by myself waiting for pple to ask me out (this is wat happen when u enter NS, you have to rot yourselve to death coz all ur buddy are busy working, studying or dating.. u can't do much except for letting thing happen and pass by ur life.

ok let see yesterday was fun...lost my way to lot1 and late for more then half an hour (ly, cy ...im so sorry for being late) anyway suppose to treat them a meal each but end up they want sweet (hiyo) hmmm today actually meeting someone but end up cancel but nvm tmr meeting someone else for dinner another st john buddy of mine then thursday back to same old shit again...i shall let u all noe what happen on the next level of hell once i book out again

wat a life ( so depressing)

2008-11-02T13:00:00.003+08:00

Yo!yo!

Another Sunday is another book in day for me as usual it will be another depressing week for me in camp... so far everything still the same im still single no gal no money and still in the freaking camp..hope everything gonna be better after 7November08...

What's going on??

2008-10-27T16:52:00.004+08:00

Hi guys,

it had been very long since i type on this blog..

so many things had happen in camp and so many test i had to sit for..

i just need to hang on for 2 more weeks before i pass out get my fire badge (extra $300 here i come)....

At this moment i don't really know what going on with my feeling.. all out of a sudden i feel that i miss someone but who??who could this person be?? maybe this person is someone special or just a friend!! i don't know Arrr!!!(should i go search for a gf ??i mean a real faithful gal other then my car)

Since the day i enlisted to NS i've been suffering from homesick eventhough i got to book out on the weekend!!my instructor said its normal but for how long??i guess i will miss home every single moment.. Arrr what the hell sound so gay talking about feeling..(even though i act like 1 doesn't mean i am 1)...i thought of earning extra cash during this two years but how??what can i do other then nursing & teaching first aid?? i was thinking of collecting drink cans and sell them but where can i sell them??

i guess i could only plan and hopefully someday i could execute them..

2008-09-06T06:10:00.003+08:00

hi guys,

It’s been very long time since my last bloging. so here is what happen,every week I book out on Friday afternoon with a smile and book in on Sunday evening with a frown. I though this routine will end until 21st august as it was the end of my REC life. But sad to say I need to do this same old shit again for another 3 months as I am posted to SRB. I guess those who were posted to SRB are excess manpower in the camp that why others call us the Singapore Rubbish Bin. In SRB we handle what the fire fighter, paramedic and rescuer handle and of cause a little of hazamat skill that what made us Special Rescue Battalion.

when I'm depress..

2008-07-26T18:21:00.004+08:00

Awww

2008-07-06T10:39:00.001+08:00

Many things had happened in the camp for the past few week (sorry can’t share cause don’t want myself into trouble). My body still aching form the training but somehow feel happy because I didn’t report sick during the training, well the PTP end on my birthday (what a luck). I met with old friends we chat about old time here and there, then in camp we got this PC that my platoon don’t like cause of his harsh discipline but then few days ago he taught me how to swim despite his injured elbow as you all know I’m a slow learner. Now everybody in my platoon was wondering what my relationship with the PC well I can assure you that my relation to him is just a recruit nothing more. Then on weekend drove my car as per normal but this time another big scratch was made :(

Ok la will stop here till next time..

oh man

2008-06-22T15:08:00.002+08:00

It’s been 2 weeks since I’ve entered the Physical Training Phase and I have few more weeks/months till end of whole training. It’s really tough for me as my muscles are not in good shape but hopefully by end of this physical training I’m in good shape. Life during training is very tough as I need to adjust to the place and people around me. Well during the training we were only allow to go back on Friday afternoon and came back on Sunday night if the trainer were happy with our performance. So far so good but I don’t really know how much longer I can keep up until I break down with all this routine. Hope this whole training end soon. Till next time!!

me,me,me

2008-06-02T09:23:00.003+08:00

For the past weeks, my chest gets a sharp pain more often and my limbs getting numbness easily. I don’t really know why maybe due to stress, nervousness or just a common unhealthy lifestyle. If I were to go for medical check up now, people will say that I’m trying to find an excuse to exempt myself from NS. Well I don’t really care about what others say. There are two main reasons why I don’t want to go for medical check up now. Firstly I don’t know if I can accept whatever the diagnosis of my conditions maybe and secondly I don’t want both of my parents to worry about me as they have other thing handles.

I always told myself to eat balance diet and excise but end up eating junk food and still slacking. I always wonder when I will change, what stop me from changing? Where have my will power gone?

A man with a dream is called dreamer
A man who work hard is called a slave
But a man who work hard and have a dream called himself successful.

way of my life

2008-05-26T09:46:00.002+08:00

For the past few days I’ve been busy “slacking” reason being I have to sacrifice something that I have treasure most for more then 16years. It took me sometime to accept the fact and move on with my life. During the process I have learnt a thing or two about life and I which I believe everybody will learn it sooner or later, be it the easy way or hard. I’ve learnt to fear of being lonely, feel the missing of someone in life, coping with problem encounter and so on.

Coping with crisis can be very hard at times because at some stage it’s really hard to get over it. For my case I went through firstly the denial stage, as times goes by slowly I’m able to accept the fact. Sometime accepting the fact came with depression and only handful of people can get out of it quick, after which came the endurances test which if it successfully done I’ll end up with problem solve.

Tough time doesn’t last but tough people do.
The time we spend may not last but the memories we share will remain unchanged.
From stranger we became friends.

Reminder of my past

2008-05-22T14:24:00.003+08:00

~Bad 2 Worse~
Realising i'm getting bad to worse~
exams drawing nearer yet i still can't be bothered~
throughout the day i slack and slack~
soon or later i'm going be a wreck~
why oh why am i like this?
This is really not my wish~

day and night i tried to change for the better
but it just gets bitter and bitter
My parents told me to study hard
yet it seems like i've broke their heart
whenever i took out a book, i started to curse
that was when i realised i'm getting bad to worse~

My results were never good,
always bringing down my parents' mood
blame me for my stupidity
that causes this sickening reality
feeling so useless, being so hopeless
life to me is meaningless
whenever i look at myself, i started to curse
that was when i realised i'm getting bad to worse~

Err..

2008-05-12T13:31:00.004+08:00

Today will be the starting of a change in my life, where my entire plan will never fit according to what I had planned. All this years I barely manage to keep my desire for studies alive but this time it been successful extinguished. Well I guess now I’m still in the state of denial as I still coming to school, I wonder when I would be accepting the facts.

Lesson being learn all this while.

In planning for the future there’s always a setback but you need to pull yourself together and continue with the life. Nobody will care if you are a failure but everybody will like to share your success if they could. So be wise in choose to have people around your life.

Found yet still lost

2008-05-03T17:28:00.003+08:00

Two days ago I saw a brother of mine at VivoCity Banquet, who I had lost for quite some time. I felt so sad yet so happy when I saw him. Sad to say is because he looked as though he was under a spell that made him unable to communicate to his own real parents. Happy because for so long he been away he still look the same. Guess what he dress the same way I dressed in my secondary school life, polo-t with smart pants and leather shoes.

Let me recalled the memories I had with him... Hmm well when I was small he was the one who take charge around the house together with my elder brother when both my parents weren’t around. He will really take care of us as though he was our parents. He will cook for us when we were hungry, iron our school uniform when our parents busy, send me to school, meet my teachers when my parents can’t make it and when he discipline us he really do discipline us. He was my mentor and my role model but now time has passes people made him change but I believe that deep inside he still the brother I knew. Before he totally lost in his own world he got told me once that he will come and visit us again as he never break his promise I will take his words.

Oh Lord i have lost someone please do guide him back for You are the greatest guidance, protect him for You are the greatest protector, help him for You are the greatest aider.

5days & 7nights ago

2008-04-30T08:43:00.003+08:00

It had been 5days and7nights since the day I got my car. Guess what happen? I created a few scratch along the way all thanks to my poor skill in parking(HAHAHA). For the past days I been driving to school and lost my way but still manage to come in class early (Hehehe... shame to those who came late).

feeling tired now

It’s been really bad for me to drive alone as I always lost my way, waste my time searching for the route and most of all I waste petrol. I guess I should get a GPS but then again I rather have a girlfriend which able to tell me the direction, accompany me through the journey and most of all she is very affordable the a GPS cause I just need to spend all my tender, love and care towards her :D

Very sleepy now and don’t really know what the hell am I typing now.
To Be Continue....(tomorrow)

Excited but sad

2008-04-25T23:42:00.004+08:00

Finally after so many years I been waiting, today was the day I got to drive my very own car. Firstly very nervous as today was the offical day I drove alone.(lucky still know how to drive) but got problem with parking(hehehe).

It been only the 3rd week of school but there's already lots of change in everybody. People really do change as the times goes by...From stranger to friend then to foe by then it's back to stranger again. I guess if things started fast eventually it do end faster.

It's only been like few weeks I knew this girl but already miss her blur looks.(it's just a crush..hahaha) I wonder when will she be free to meet me again??.

What a day...

2008-04-21T20:53:00.002+08:00

Today life was kind of mess up. First I missed three buses on my way to school because 168 at my stop always packed. Lucky not late because I bother to get out of my house early..In the morning drink 1liter of milk on empty stomach. Got very bad tummy aceh because milk react with the acids in the stomach to produce gas..(Why I know yet still I keep doing it??).

After school very happy as I got a date with Nicola but end up she got change of plan..feel so sad got ditch by her(hahaha not really im sad because of other stuff). Now feel very useless as all the plan I have for my life will go down only god know where...It is very hard for me to enjoy my life with people around me when I consciously aware that my life is doom.

Oh Lord I know that You will never give a burden greater then what your sevent could endure so please do help me in my times of needs. And i know that i always forgot about You so do pull me back to Your path and forget me not.

Journey

2008-04-19T20:32:00.003+08:00

My journey to have a better education is doom right now. For a slow learner like myself, it is an achievement for being able to enrol and cope with polytechnic life. But sad to say that my glory of education will only end with saddness due to the present deferment guidelines for NS. Well what to do it's just fated that I can't get a diploma no matter how hard I've try. The only thing I could do now is just wait for miracle to happen to let me continue the studies. Will I be able to lead my family out of poverty in education?(only thing I could do is wonder & wish)

well let see how long a slow learner like myself waste time schooling

2years=>kindergarten(January1992-December1993)

6years=>primary school(January1994-December1999)

4years=>secondery school(January2000-December2003)

2years=>Nitec course(January2004-December2005)

2years=>Higher Nitec course(May2006- March2008)

8weeks(have to quit for NS)=>polytechnic(April2008)

2weeks after poly

2008-04-18T08:45:00.003+08:00

It's been 2weeks since I start poly life..so far so good, made lots of friends and future enemy. The class was joyful at first but as times goes by the joyfulness die within.

Today I receive letter regarding my deferment from NS.. As thought the result were clearly reject with no circumstance. well there always a rainbow after a thunderstorm, so i guess my feeling of emptiness will end soon after this conflicts of getting diploma Vs NS.

To all my buddy:
Hold on dear to what you have now and can achieve rather then cry over what had happen.
Never regrets what you have choose cause every action (may it be good or bad) there's always an opportunity for you to succeed in life.

happy/sian

2008-04-16T20:49:00.003+08:00

Today went to school like any other day (super early). At first super happy when the car company call me..(getting my car soon).hehehe...after that as I say like any normal school day very sian!! Today presentation did very badly(more sian)...

After school hang around with ah Kai, KJ, Nana & Ah ma (Shermaine).. we went to Plaza Singapura play arcade cause ah Kai like to play so we join him play also(hehehe) after no more money to spend we slack to waste time...

During slacking time
I was like watching chinese drama..trying to read the subtitle flying around but couldn't catch up so end up blogging..well all I could say is the internet connection dam lousy need to keep on signnig in...dam sian so decided to go home first (hehehe)

Bullshit

2008-04-14T21:35:00.006+08:00

Today was like any other day..weant to school, do presentation, quiz, RJ, peer & self evaluation. But today feel kind of stupid cause I go send my notebook for configuration. Well the school say they need to configure the student laptop so that we gonna have a smooth 3years stay with them as they need to help us install all the necessary software needed for our lesson.(bull shit) all the configure done is make my notebook more lag. Well who am I to question the IT personnel about IT stuff.

Well if I want to stay & get my diploma I have to play along. As I'm still waiting for my deferment letter to approve so I will endure as long as it will take..if I really can't defer any longer then I will reconfigure the notebook accoding to my requirment.hehehe...life is really tough right now so I will do my best to adapt to the situation.

A person once told me that if I want to be better in life I should be this three animal: Eagle => Have a great vision and forcus toward the goal

Chameleon => able to blend in with the situation

Lion => brave to face any challenge and fear no challenge coming.

happy day

2008-04-07T22:49:00.005+08:00

Yo!!

Today the start of the new day in RP..well the first day was not so bad, we had fun through out except for the group discussion. I guess all of us don't like to do work..hehehe. After school very sleepy but being recharge by Nicola message, she just ask me out for dinner.(wow super so happy). She look very cute when she just woke up.(sorry to keep you waiting until you fall asleep), half way her younger sister came and join us. At first she was shy as I was there but end up we bully Nicola(hehehe).

Let me tell you all more about Nicola...

Well I knew her through the net on 5th April 08

she in her sweet 16, from NYJC transfer to MJC

well I guess that should be all..

by the my class there's not much pretty girls after all

Hope

2008-04-04T22:23:00.004+08:00

hey!!

Today got my new notebook for monday lesson. (very happy)

tomorrow collecting my new passport (finally its new, 10years been the same old passport)hehehe!!

My car (when the hell are you coming out??)

well 7th April poly starting lucky first day reporting at 9am if early confirm will be late.

oh ya need to extand my NS deferment date for another 3years if not half way got call up die. By the way hope all the girls in my class are pretty so got motivation to go for lesson..hahaha

logging off

mess up

2008-04-04T01:17:00.002+08:00

hey there!!

Yesterday kinda mess up given by the poly application.
first need to report to the asign poly just to take the enrolment "package"
then they told us to come today just to pay the enrolment & 1st semaster fees
the one that piss me off the most was the financial assistance schemes, by the way I took the CPFEducation Scheme and here how the steps goes:

visit the website http://mycpf.cpf.gov./Members/Gen-nfo/FAQ/Education/EDNHigh.htm
(which bring me to this msg "Sorry, this page is no longer available.
Please visit our homepage or use our search function to find the information you need.")
Log in using the student SingPass
About 4days after student submitted the application the other party should see the application submmited by the student. the other party need to verify by click on "comfirm"
within one weekafter the other party confirmed, student should receive an email confirmation from CPF board and this has to be forwarded to the Polytechnic via email by 07th April 2008.

let us reflact on the step above with the date I've recieve the information. Just a gentel reminder this things all happen yesterday. Izzit logical to crash about 11days of waiting time into juz 4 to 5 days??

well I guess this is the start of a new problem..

what a luck

2008-04-02T20:39:00.003+08:00

hi again!!

Today feel kinda down because feel like burden my parents again & again. Even though they don't mind about it but some how I feel sad for them. Actually I really don't mind waiting for few more years to drive when I heard the insurance for person below the age of 21 is $6000. I guess there still stereotype in this morden world. I really wonder why the insurance company look at the age if the person already capable of doing something. If they think that driver below the age of 21 are dangerous then why do they even bother to insure them at all?

Well in life people always look down on you on matter how capable you are. Its either you prove them wrong or keep the yep out. For me why bother proving to people when they don't belive you.(waste of time)

hope & work towards it, one day you will achieve your dream

Change

2008-03-31T20:39:00.008+08:00

hey there!!
today I got lots of changes.(as long its not bad I don't mind)

firstly I went to ICA to extand my passport date and end up spending $75.35

$70 for new passport (need to renew my already expired)

$5.35 for 4pic of passport photo (What a luck)

then went to the bank to deposit my awared cheque and also update my passbook..ending up with new passbook (well its the 3rd time since i open up this account) and also changing a new ATMcard (i think its also the 3rd time i change my card). while at the bank i saw pamphlet about MSA, ask some question here and there ending up with new acount open.(HAHAHA)

hope my life is changing to be better :)

when will my new car arrive??so sad need to wait

Good things are worth to wait for..(HEHEHE)

Empty & Confuse

2008-03-28T21:11:00.014+08:00

Hello mate!!

It's has been two weeks now since i feel kind of empty in my life.

I really doesn't know what i really want to do with my life should I future my studies or work after my intership. So I decide to plan my future ( well its might not be as good as others but it will do for now)

so here's my plan:

Go look for a job (in paper/internet)

on the 4th April check for poly posting ( hopefully by then i got my car)

on the 7th April go for dental appointment ( extraction of my wisdom tooth must be painful)

if can't go poly apply for paramedic or police

well the rest of the plan need to wait after 7th April..

loging off for now

hope everything goes as plan.

Introduction

2008-03-26T14:03:00.000+08:00

hey there!!

Let me tell you more about myself, well here I go..

I'm the kind of person who started to enjoy my life at a very young age and always neglected my studies. I can say that most of my stuff I've learn through the world of tevevision. I guess it's better to be smart in some ways rather then decompose yourself doing nothing.

Primary School

Well this part of life I really can't remember much. All I know that I really hate to go school, God know whatever the reason is.. In Pri 5 & 6 all I could remember was we only study math, science & mother tongue.

Secondary School

Let me see.. Here I was not really bother to study much until I reach sec 3 where I really put in some effort to study. Life in secondary school is much better then in primary school but then again who am I to say when all the while I just slid through the years without stress.

After Secondary Life

During my school life my teacher always told us that those who enjoy now will suffer later. So I guess I really take their words seriously and enrolled myself to nitec course in nursing, higher nitec in biochemical technology and mayb into poly. I wonder which course in poly I will get into?